Worship

The journey of yes – part one

He wants to sit right in front. Oh no. I'm cringing. We walk down the aisle to the seats just behind the front row.We do the chair shuffle. 'sorry', 'thank you', 'sorry'. I'm standing awkwardly next to someone I don't know. I dont get this church thing. I feel so awkward. I wish we could… Continue reading The journey of yes – part one

Worship

The Why…

As a child I was always writing. I would write songs, poetry, short stories and anything else that came to mind. I went through a period in my adult life when I was in such a broken place that I could not write, not even in my personal journal. I would avoid it at all… Continue reading The Why…

Anxiety

Prison rooms part 2

I'm sitting at my desk. In my class. My teacher has asked us to write down what our lives will look like in 10 years time and when we are done, 20 years and then 30 years. I start writing furiously. 1. I go to university. 2. I am a marine biologist. 3. No, a… Continue reading Prison rooms part 2

Anxiety

Prison rooms

It's Friday afternoon. The bathroom door swings open slowly. I look up into the eyes of my husband. He places his hand on his hip, his shoulders droop and he sighs gently. 'And, what is happening here?', he askes. 'Mommy is crying', Noah replies, snuggling his soft baby blonde head into my neck. I'm sitting… Continue reading Prison rooms

Family

Meeting me

The past year or so has been a journey of self discovery. I am loathe to use that clichè but alas, here we are. I have walked through a process of deep inner healing and through this process I have had the priveledge of meeting me. It all started when one morning I woke up… Continue reading Meeting me

Worship

Lessons from Job

Over the past couple of months I have been reading through the book of Job. In my heart I am going through a Job experience. This year has been one of the best and worst for me. I followed God into a place that I anticipated would be something other than what it has been,… Continue reading Lessons from Job